Jan 25 2010


If I were a month, I’d be April
If I were a day of the week, I’d be Thursday
If I were a time of day, I’d be Midnight
If I were a planet, I’d be Pluto… wait its not a planet anymore… scratch that… I’d be Neptune.
If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Turtle
If I were a direction, I’d be West
If I were a piece of furniture, a Bookshelf
If I were a liquid, I’d be Coffee
If I were a gemstone, I’d be Emerald
If I were a tree, I’d be a Willow
If I were a flower, I’d be a Calla Lilly
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be Spring
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Recorder
If I were a color, I’d be Black… wait… Green…
If I were an emotion, I’d be Gleeful
If I were a fruit, I’d be a Banana
If I were a sound, I’d be a Baby’s Laughter
If I were an element, I don’t Oxygen
If I were a car, I’d be a red Toyota Prius
If I were a food, a Pizza
If I were a place, I’d be Wherever You Are
If I were a material, I’d be Satin
If I were a taste, I’d be a Sweet
If I were a scent, I’d be something Lavender
If I were an object, I’d be The Ground on Which You Stand
If I were a body part, I’d be Your Hands Used to Change the World
If I were a facial expression, I’d be A Smile
If I were a song, I’d be “Jump Jivin'”
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be Ballet Flats
If I were a spice, I’d be Basil
If I were a relationship status, Happily Married
If I were a photo, I’d be in Sepia
If I were a sentence, I’d be Unfinished
If I were a kiss, I’d be Passionate
If I were a smile, I’d be The One that Lights Up Your Day.
If I were a different person, I’d be Mother Theresa.

Jan 22 2010


please prettyprettyplease stop throwing wrenches our way. We can’t dodge all of them, and they are leaving some hefty bruising.

k + s

Jan 20 2010

yours, mine, and ours.

Has anyone seen that old flick – Yours, Mine + Ours ? The original 1960’s one, not the 2005 rendition that slaughtered it. Lucille Ball is one of my theatrical hero’s, I don’t think there’s a speck of anything she’s created from Lucy Ricardo in I Love Lucy to Susan Vega in Forever, Darling that I don’t adore.

Throughout the film, the Beardsley family has the trial of joining their {rather large} families into one joint family unit, having to drop the “ours” and “theirs” mentality and move on toward their new lives’ together – which creates one of the funniest family drama’s arguably of all time. Now, I am bringing this up because as of late, this whole melodrama of what is “mine”, what is “yours”, and what is “ours” has been spindling down, + its not even between us… but our families. Before this week + my mass reading of every bridal magazine I can get my frigid little hands on, I would ok… I lied, have believed that we are committing a social wedding faux pas by being engaged longer than 2 + 1/2 minutes. Thankfully, the bridal magazines have lightened my hearts load by featuring wedding-upon-wedding that have engagements lasting from 15-24 months! phew. For a while I thought we were the only ones on planet earth that were waiting 16 months from engagement to wedding.

The hardest part of the whole long engagement is the continuation of the “yours” + “mine” – even with 4 years of dating under our belts. Somedays, it feels as though our families won’t start this “ours” methodology until the day of the wedding. It seems {in my perspective} that its always my family inviting me to dinner, or his family inviting him to dinner, not the joint, inviting us to dinner or whatever. Maybe, I am just taking this far too personal {like I tend to do}…

Jan 18 2010

on haiti.

On Tuesday a magnitude 7 earthquake struck the island of Haiti, creating one of the greatest natural disasters of our lifetime.  There are several factors that make this disaster so terrible.  The epicenter of the quake occurred in a densely populated area, where poverty levels were high, and the quality of building construction wasn’t.  At present, the Red Cross estimates that 50,000 people have been killed.  More than a million people are now without homes.  Access for aid workers is difficult, because Haiti is an island, and the port was destroyed. Lines of communication have been seriously disrupted. And on top of everything, many of the responders are also victims—people who have lost their homes and their loved ones.

Since I can’t physically be there to help with this crisis, this seems all I can do. To raise awareness, to pray, and to give. Today in church, Pastor Troy briefed us a bit on a few things: a) the quake in Haiti b) the convoy of hope c) grieving with God.

As I am one that rarely actually watches anything live on the tele, I heard about the quake via CNN’s Twitter broadcast, immediately my heart was broken & prayers were sent to this grieving nation as I searched the web for more information. As images began to flood my screen depicting the destruction + death tool, my eyes stung as tears became like a water fall. My heart ached as I pried my eyes away from the screen, wishing there was something I could physically do. I quickly wandered over to the doctors without borders site to see when the first crew was being dispatched to Port-Au-Prince, was only hours after the shock, even with their own medical facility suffering extreme damage they have set up temporary clinics in the few buildings that still stand – as of today, they have 813 medical personnel on site working with triage, search + rescue, surgical procedures, and comforting those whom have lost loved ones.

Today, I was introduced to another partner that has been giving aid in Haiti since long before the quake – the convoy of hope. The Convoy of Hope is a humanitarian organization with resources leveraged around the world to help those in need.  Their ministry in Haiti feeds 7000 children each day, and I’m thankful that their warehouse was restocked just before the earthquake.  This enabled them to establish a command center just outside the capital city of Port-Au-Prince within 24 hours of the disaster.

In a time of such great need + desperation, a time where we should be lending our hearts + funds, we have seen people use some cruel words towards these grieving souls. We have heard a man take the Lords’ words out of context and say things that no one should ever utter – such as “made a pact with the devil” and that “the Lords’ vengeance was the reason for the quake”. These phrases are not only hurtful, but as far from the truth as possible. The shock, however devastating was unfortunately logic, Haiti straddles the Caribbean + North American tectonic plates – it was only a matter of time before a collision of this velocity struck this nation. To label any natural disaster as God’s judgment is nonsense. Yes, God has allowed this travesty to occur – but no he did not cause it. I could never live in a world that I believed that he would cause such dire events such as this quake in Haiti, hurricane Katrina, nor the events of 9.11.01 as a way to purge/punish the world for their sins. The ignorance + arrogance of those that believe it so, creates such a burden on all those who call themselves Christians. The Lord is grieving for those souls that were lost + those whom have been injured throughout the quakes. In  Matthew 5:4: “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” I do not believe there is a better time in our decade to state this, Blessed – for the Lord is with – those who mourn, for the Lord is your comfort.

If you can spare even 5$ please take 3 minutes and visit one of these amazing caregivers that are all on site in Haiti. They need help.  They need our prayers.  They need our money.  Right now.

Convoy of HopeAmerican Red CrossDoctors without BordersUNICEF

Jan 18 2010

i have a dream.

Happy MLK day all! I hope you all take the time to honor our literary + revolutionary geniuses that have graced our millennia. I know many who take this day as an other, as a free paid holiday to frolic in the snow + get mad that the banks aren’t open. But today, is a day that shall hopefully be continued to be honored as a day that a man spoke out against injustice, and that we will continue to speak out until all men, women, children (yes pets too) are treated with the great care, love + respect that they deserve. We have come so far from where Rev. Martin Luther King Jr. stood on that August 28 day of 1963. We as Americans, as people, as children of God, as a global community have continued to raise our awareness of injustice, of cruelty, of discrimination, of poverty – and we have done what we can to eradicate it, however, it is happening, still everyday, on the streets in every nation, its around our corners + somehow we have become blind to it. We need to stand up, we need to face this head on because, its now or never – its 2011 – 43 years after this amazing man stood up to the crowds of opposition and we have not done him the justice that he deserved. His speech may be “outdated” to the modern world, littered with 1960’s lingo, but it still rings true today. Please, re-read it, please, I promise it will inspire you to make a change. To be a change.

If I am not at home accepting the things I cannot change, I am out changing the things I cannot accept.